Recurring Dream

I’m piloting a small plane or a space shuttle with three other people in the cabin. At least one or two do not know how to pilot the aircraft. We are returning from a trip; the topic of conversation is whether or not to have pizza when we arrive. At some point, I decide we are not going to survive the return flight, even though the path is clear. I set the controls so no one else can interfere and conspicuously stop piloting a the craft. One of the others is very angry with my decision and berates me loudly as we start to plummet to the ground, one cries, the other prays. For some reason we are not buckled in, or at least I’m not, and at some point I begin to spin as though I’m in free fall. The angry person accused me of wanting to experience free fall or weightlessness at the expense of our lives, and I know he is right and I am very selfish, but we are on our way to death and it’s at this point that I wake up, violently coughing irl. The coughing fit lasts for many minutes: tears run down my face as I struggle to regain my breath.

I’ve dreamed this several nights in a row and wake up the same way each time.

Possible interpretations from dreammoods.com:

“To dream that you commit suicide represents your desperate desire to escape from your waking life. You may be harboring feelings of guilt that you cannot get over and thus turning the aggression on yourself. You need to start approaching problems from a different angle. Alternatively, the dream suggests that you are saying good-bye to one aspect of yourself and hello to a whole new you. It is symbolic of a personal transformation or a new stage in your life.

To dream that you have committed a murder indicates that you are putting an end to an old habit and a former way of thinking. This could also refer to an end to an addiction. Alternatively, the dream indicates that you have some repressed aggression or rage at yourself or at someone. Note also that dreams of murder occur frequently during periods of depression.”

“To dream that you are flying an airplane suggests that you are in complete control of your destination in life. You are confident and self-assured in your decisions and accomplishments.”

“To dream that a plane crashes signifies that you have set overly high and unrealistic goals for yourself. You are in danger of having those goals come crashing down. Alternatively, the crashing airplane represents your lack of confidence, self-defeating attitude and self-doubt. You do not believe in your own ability to achieve those goals. Loss of power and uncertainty in achieving your goals are also signified.

To wake up before you crash in your dream may simply be the anticipation of the crash that jolts you awake. It is similar to the notion of waking up before you hit the ground from a fall.”

Both Is Good

now bid me run, and I will strive with things impossible – Wm. Shakespeare

With 2016 and the big 4-0 just around the corner, my desire to run a sub-2 half marathon is growing. I still have some time to decide which race to PR: the Borgess Run or the Park2Park? The latter has a gorgeous, inspirational beach view at Mile 7, but the Borgess Run with its killer hills would leave me feeling more accomplished (and possibly more injured). It’s difficult to train for the springtime Borgess Run because I usually suffer through a terrible mid-winter sinus infection that knocks weeks off of my training schedule, but I’ve run this race twice [respectably] with little-to-no training so it can be done. Park2Park training would start in July, after Ramadan. I’d be a little shaky to start but it can also be done… soooo, I should probably do both.

Both is good.